i always want to help my friends but i never know how. i say the wrong things. i do things that don’t help. i can’t even relate. And all i want to tell them is that i’m there for them and yes i don’t know what to say and i don’t want to be clingy or creepy and i come off that way sometimes and i hate that about myself but still i’m always there. And then i think about how i don’t want to get used as an emotional punching bag again but i’m used to it so whatever as long as it helps and i know they actually care about me.



it probably seems like i cry over stupid shit but tbh i usually end up crying because i’ve stored up all of my upset feelings from multiple things rather than express them and then the littlest thing sets me off like spilling my drink may not be that big of a deal but when i’ve stored up that many negative emotions it feels like i busted a hole in the hoover dam