i always want to help my friends but i never know how. i say the wrong things. i do things that don’t help. i can’t even relate. And all i want to tell them is that i’m there for them and yes i don’t know what to say and i don’t want to be clingy or creepy and i come off that way sometimes and i hate that about myself but still i’m always there. And then i think about how i don’t want to get used as an emotional punching bag again but i’m used to it so whatever as long as it helps and i know they actually care about me.